whoa ho ho!!!

its been a while, hasnt it my sugar babies??

why yes, it has. everything is going wonderfully. God answers in many wonderful ways. I was lead to an absolutely awesome ministry called True Life. It was exactly what I was looking for. The people are absolutely the sweetest of all, and its just this cozy feeling when you walk through the door.

So tonight was weird. Don came over. It was … I dont know. emotional. I didnt cry in front of him though. I think i did a really good job of hiding it. Its not that I still am in love with him, or I still want to be with him because believe me, I dont. Its just… I dont know. Its sad that I put all my eggs in his basket. Im disappointed in myself, and in a way I still havent forgiven myself. And I havent forgiven him either. Completely.

Ahh well, that doesnt mean I dont want the best for him because I do. I hope he is happy doing what he does. I hope he finds faith. I hope he finds everything he is looking for.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: