i got my dress!!!
i would post a picture, but i think the online picture does it such a disservice. im so excited though, and danielle michelle and christine SAVED the day, because the lady who was supposed to be helping me was not helpful at. all. I was getting very stressed and cranky. Thank the Lord for my best friends.
seriously.
its all becoming real now.
In less than a month, I will be Mrs. Ian Johnson
IM GETTING MARRIED! 
we have a place to live!
we have a job!
things are falling directly in to place perfectly.
in a month is not the easiest thing in the world to do. ESPECIALLY for a laidback girl who is not detail oriented at all. and for a couple who does not have money to spend.
but, when God is the center of a decision, i think he makes sure things work out, because i cant explain why everything is coming together so nicely. Also, my bridesmaids are absolutely amazing. Danielle will text me random questions i forget to think about, michelle is making my cake, christine is helping research decorating ideas and stuff like that. Not to mention supersweet girls from the Bible study I go to, who are willing and ready to help where they can. Its amazing really. i cant believe this is actually happening.
its not about the wedding. its about the man I am marrying, its about our closest family and friends being there to share this time with us. Its about the Lord, bringing us together into a marriage not only with eachother, but with Him as well. Its about consencrating ourselves as a couple, as one unit working for Him and Him alone. That is what this means to us. Starting a life together, celebrating our love and devotion to eachother and Jesus Christ. We are so excited to see what the Lord has in store.
I do have mixed feelings about moving away. I dont want to take for granted the time i have with my friends, but i do. 
its hard when you get older and you have to work around eachothers schedules and kids and everything that comes with life. but i guess that is life. it doesnt get easier.
I am also taking this time I have with God too. My days as a single woman are numbered, and I really need Him to prepare me for the the things that will happen in this next stage of life. I am easily gettin overwhelmed with everything right now, and i easily lose sight.
I heard this song, and it just…. it describes where I have been and what I have to remind myself of every day. That even through everything, God will NEVER leave me. Here are the lyrics:
“In the midst of my darkest hour
you see my tear-stained face
This broken form that no longer
feels power with no apparent place
But even when this world has turned her back on me
When it’s cold where it once had burned
When my thoughts are frightening
You will never leave me. You will never leave me.
When I fail at living and loving when I fail You Lord
I want things that I know very well I cannot afford
When I feel like I have no purpose except to live and die
Or all they tell me is that I’m worthless why even try
You will never leave me. You will never leave me.
I cannot be sure of my love for You
But in the midst of my doubt… you are true”
Kendall Payne has a lot of great music. “I will show you love”, “On my bones”, “Scratch” “Burning Embers” and “Never Leave” are my favorite ones i have heard so far. If you and I have similar taste in music, you will love her. Read the lyrics first, though. Please pray for Ian and I to get everything situated as far as an apartment, and the jobs and everything. we should find everything out within the next couple of weeks. Please pray.
NO. im NOT pregnant! Ian and I have saved that part of our relationship for marriage and marriage only. We want to get married for a lot of reasons, including moving to new england and of course we love eachother! The timing, although quickly after engagement, is right to us at this point in our lives. If everything comes together, then thats whats gonna happen! If it doesnt, its still going to happen! so stop gossiping, and specualting and whatever it is you love to indulge yourself in.
im so excited!!!
Ian and I are engaged!!!
we’re gettin married quick too…
and moving to new england.
TA-DAAAAAAA!
so im working out like a crazy lady. I want to lose at least 10 lbs by this time next month. I am currently 166lbs, the heaviest ive ever been! but I think that by eating more reasonably, increasing water intake and doing at least an hour of cardio a day, i can get down to 155.
hope so!!!
life can appear to happen in a whirlwind… but is the will of God.
pray for me,
we will see what happens.
Im heading down to Charlotte NC with Ian and his brother to the National Apologetics Conference. I AM SO PUMPED! ! ! I just looked at the schedule, and they have it broken down in a series of workshops you can choose from. AAAAAAAAAH, its all so good, that I cant hardly decide on the workshops I want to do!!! whats reeeeaaaaally cool, is that i can already tell you the ones Ian is gonna want to go to, and I think our best bet is to split up and do different workshops, and then teach eachother what we learned!
Ok im really excited.
Only a half hour til work is OVA!
I will definitely update when i get back on sunday!!!! wish us a safe drive!
That song called… At this moment by vera billy and the beaters, is really very sad. I dont know why but whenever i hear it, i want to cry! they play it on Ben FM like, every day and i always wanna run up and turn the radio off… but i dont think my coworker would like that too much, since she always sings along.
it really does make me very very sad. must be the sax solo.
This is incredible. Whether you voted for Obama, or McCain you really do have to sit back and recognize the progress America has shown with the election of the first African-American president of the United states.
I was thinking of it from this angle. I know many Christians who think that this signifies impending judgement on America, but what if its not? What if God willed that Obama be in office, to smash the racial barriers that still exist in America today? Our history as a country has deep roots in slavery and racism. African Americans were only considered 3/5 of a person when the constitution was written. Only 40 years ago, a law was passed guaranteeing African-Americans the right to vote. How fitting is it that our first African-American president is a product of an African Kenyan man and a white American woman? It paints a beautiful picture of how far our country has come. My generation is much less educated on the civil rights movement, and the events leading up to it and it seems that we see and make judgements based on skin color much less than any other generation. I am so proud to be an American right now.
This election is historic, and I am truly in awe.
To my fellow Christians who are distressed and disappointed by these results: Please remember who it is who holds our future. It is not a man, not a system, not anything we on earth can control. Our future is in God’s hands, and His will will be done whether we like it or not, whether we agree with it or not. Remember, fear does not come from God, nor does worry or anxiety. We need to continue praying for Barack Obama, and we need to hold out hope that he will be a good president.
All in all, this is an amazing time in history.
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