Random things about me

Here is a random list about random things… about me.

- I don’t take life seriously… theres something in me that just doesn’t let me.

- I love being in love and never pass up a chance to fall.

- Everyone I have fallen for, has broken my heart.

- Routines bore me, so I constantly try to “shake up” my life. I view it kind of like rearranging furniture. I dont mind changing jobs, apartments, churches… almost any change is welcome in my book.

- I love getting through heartache because i know it brings me closer to God.

- I get hit on a lot at the drive thru window… but hey it usually gets me some free fries so im not complainin! ;P

- Id love to sit and listen to sermons all day long.

- If you and I have never been in a pretty serious argument or fight, i do not consider you a close friend. If we have, and we are speaking now… you mean the world to me

- Im a compulsive list maker. but then i lose my lists…

- It is unusually easy for me to cut people out of my life.

- I 100% believe Jesus is coming back in my lifetime.

- People laugh at me from their cars when they see me because im the girl singing at the top of her lungs and i dont care whos listening.

- I can describe every single situation in my life, every feeling and emotion ive ever had, with a song lyric.

Christine makes my day

so im at work on the phone with Christine… and it is 1pm

Christine: Be happy! Your day is almost over!

Me: No, its not!

Christine: Yeah, your day more than half over!

Me: Not its not! what are you talking about?

Christine: Yeah, youre done at 6 o clock right?

Me: yes… I have 5 hours left!!

Christine: Oh………… nevermind.

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Ian Johnson makes my day too… because he ordered the NFL network so that we can watch the Green Bay Dallas game tonight. if thats not love, i dont know what is.

Random thought

remember when there were no blue M&Ms?

This is the song i love.

Ive decided

that I do not want anything for Christmas this year. I want everyone who would normally get me a gift, to give something to the homeless or at least someone who needs something more than I do. I have realized how selfish I am. And … it just hit me that wow… there are people who dont live in houses. there are people who arent able to be with their families for the holiday. there are people who cant afford to get their kids anything for Christmas. and yeah according to american standards, im pretty poor. i am in a lot of debt, and dont really make enough money to live on my own…

but i have so much more than others. i have clean water, a roof over my head, clean clothing, a car. i can eat 3 meals a day, comfortably. i dont really want for anything. everything i need to survive, i have. there are so many people who dont have that.

 So im asking all of you, please help at least one person who you know is less fortunate than you. Give a meal to someone you see living on the street, or a family you know is struggling. We have to open our eyes and see those around us. Our culture teaches us to be selfish and to take care of ourselves before taking care of others. Then we get in to this state of mind and its almost like we have blinders on to the world around us. Only focusing on ourselves. Jesus says to love each other as we love ourselves. There shouldnt be a priority … you shouldnt put yourself before others. Let your heart break for them and the situation they are in, and help them as you are able to. Love is not just a feeling. Love is accompanied by action.

For starters, you could call 1 866 500 4673(HOPE). a 38 dollar donation can feed 20 people. thats less than 2 dollars a person…. ya know? The organization finds the closest rescue organization to your zip code and gives the money you donate to them, so you help the people in your community.

So go ahead and show people that they are loved. Not only by us, but more importantly and amazingly by our Father, in heaven. …”They will know you by your love”…

Have a safe and blessed holiday.

nevermind

its sold out.

im excited

because december 14th, me and Lima are going to NYC to see alicia keys.

i love lima.

i love NYC.

and i love alicia keys.

its going to be a lovely day!

I love Alicia Keys

my favorite song on the cd, is “Like youll never see me again”

“If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn’t feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I’d be wishing you were here
To be everything that I’d be looking for
I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you’ll love me
Love me like you’ll never see me again

How many really know what love is?
Millions never will
Do you know until you lose it
That it’s everything that we are looking for
When I wake up in the morning
You’re beside me
I’m so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking for

I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
(can you do that for me baby)
Every time you touch me
(see we don’t really know)
Touch me like this is the last time
(see everyday we never know)
Promise that you’ll love me
(I want you to promise me)
Love me like you’ll never see me again
(like you’ll never see me again) “

Im really excited

just to hang out with him. and its nice to be excited over something so simple.

something to look foward to at the end of the day…

Its so cool

How God speaks through other people right to you. I just had a conversation with Sianie, and she doesnt know it, but she really really helped me out…

im sifting through so many thoughts and everything in my head in my spirit in my heart.

God is definitely trying to tell me something and i am closer and closer to figuring out what that something is. I mean, I know a little bit about what it is that he wants to hit home in my spirit right now.

Im having a lot of trouble with being self conscious. . . fearing i wont be happy. . . of not being able to make someone else happy just the way that I am… of not being enough of what I want to be enough of. I know that that doesnt really make sense to anyone… but its a battle ive had for a really long time, and i feel like its been sleeping. i thought i had delt with it, when in reality i just would morph in to whatever it was i wanted to be at the moment. but now im in a position where these issues i have need to be delt with, or i might ruin something really wonderful. I need to deal with this because until i am truly and deeply happy with myself and who God has made me to be, i will not be able to do what I am called to do in His name.

I am so thankful for friends. True friends. I only have a few, and I dont talk to them everyday, and they may not understand me at all, bc heck i dont even understand myself.  but its those people who God just… uses to reach me sometimes. its those people who give me hope. i dont feel crazy, because someone understands what it is that is going through my head and my heart. God, through Sian today showed me that im not a weirdo. That if she can understand thoughts in my head, insecurities i have, fears i have… then certainly He understands too.