Just so you know…

Im purposely waiting until friday to update…

a “first week of school” update.

i know youre excited.

First day of classes!!

I have my sexual crimes class, and my research class. Ill be back here around 5:30, and then im goin to the gym at 7.

Wish me luck!

Other than that, its move in day.

My car is fresh and ready to go.

Its also a rainyday. A rainy move in day. Its all good. Anyway, Im at least glad we worked the whole roommate situation out. one of my “potential roommates” actually emailed me and asked me if I liked cheese. hm. I mean, I DO like cheese… but thats just not something you open a conversation with! Anyway, my goals for the semester have not changed from any other year. except for to lose more weight. I usually want to lose about 6lbs… but NOW I want to lose at least… 11 or so. whatever. I dont care as long as I look better, and am healthy. Also obviousely my other goal is to do well in school. I really need to stay focused.

Well here is a picture of my roommate and I… to kick the year off. 

                                                        

I love this song

I heard it while listening to a contemporary christian station on comcast cable. Its beautiful.

If You Want Me To – Ginny Owens 

The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don’t know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I’m gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Cause I’m not who I was
When I took my first step
And I’m clinging to the promise You’re not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that’s not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I’d never go alone

So When the whole world turns against me
And I’m all by myself
And I can’t hear You answer my cries for help
I’ll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley
If You want me to

When I cross over Jordan,
I’m gonna sing, gonna shout
I’m gonna look into Your eyes and see
You never let me down
So take me on the pathway that will lead me home to You
And I will walk through the valley
If You want me to

Yes, I will walk through the valley
If You want me to

long time no type…eh?

well.. i havent been on the internet all week so that explains that.

whats new whats new?? yeah i dont really know! because i dont know what you know, and what you dont know and i could go back and read what i have written, but thats boring. soooo.

yeah i should really start packing. no i havent started yet. i want to start moving stuff in tomorrow… but i dunno. i havent packed ANYTHING. like… NOTHING. and i have no money for school supplies. I dont know how, but God will provide. He told me He will… so He will. Im not really worried.

What else? other than school starting? I gained 10 lbs this summer. Absolutely increadible. But I dont really care, because Im looking foward to exercising when I get back to school anyways. Yep. I love Mr. tredmill! We have been apart for entirely too long! I cannot believe I gained 10 lbs…. i bet 8.5 of it can be attributed to coldstone. Thank you, birthday cake remix. You look wonderful on me.

Tonight was a prayer night at the church. I love prayer nights the most because its the most intimite. I have been looking foward to it all day. Its the last one before school starts, and I just took that time out to thank Him for all that he has blessed me with this summer.  I just hope I can stay this connected and everything throughout the schoolyear. Last year was such a bad year. I was totally broken, which was good because He really showed me that I cant and shouldnt rely on any single person for my happiness. Its such a hard habit to break, because thats something ive been used to doing. Cling to a few people, a few good friendships. Not necessarily to help me get through my problems via advice or anything, but to distract me from them. To help me be greatful for what I have. But as people change, situations change, and friendships inevitably change, I have to face my issues, on my own. I dont have that distraction right there all the time. I have to start dealing with stuff.

Im nervous about this school year. A lot of things are different. Im thinking its all for the better… I just… dont want to lose this fire I have right now. 

I dont know, I just need to keep focusing my eyes up high and Ill be happy. Its so awesome because I have met a bunch of people who love to read, and praise and seek His face just as much, if not more, than I do. Its amazing. I dont feel like a big weirdo. I actually feel normal. People ask me why I go to church all the time (I go about 5-7 times a week), well its because thats where I feel the most comfortable. Its where I can be myself. Its where I can talk to, sing to, praise my Father.  Its the closest to home that I will get, in this world.

I really love my life.

show me Your heart, show me Your way…

I have nothing really to write about right now…

summer is almost over. i have mixed feelings. this was an awesome summer, but i feel like its time for it to end. ya know? i dont feel like the things that happened this summer, or the people i have met are going to be long in the past or anything. ill stiill be goin to true life every sunday, and ill have my car so i can go visit michelle and halli and everything. its like… its time to take what i learned this summer, and apply it to the semesters coming up. ya know? so in a sense im excited. also, im happy about the roommate situation being fixed.

i hope i am able to join crosswalk at main campus, and jubilee at ambler. i cant describe the feeling i have inside right now.

its just this….fire.

God is so good.

Tonight i was baptized.

It was increadible.

I feel like a new person (to an extent) kind of like a piece of me was filled. its hard to explain, but its true.

“I called. You answered. And You came to my rescue and I wanna be where you are.

In my life, be lifted high

In our world, be lifted high

In our love, be lifted high.”

“You are God in heaven

And here am I on Earth.

So Ill let my words be few

Jesus I am so in love with You.”

swing dancin baby!

so tonight, we went swing dancin. it was a free lesson, so a bunch of truelifers went! it was awesome. i learned a lot. kind of. ok not really. but definitely the highlight was dancing with tommy jordan, from PST. yeah. thats right, i danced with a celebrity (pushing it? maybe) i dont listen to the radio anymore, but in like… 7th and 8th grade I was all about the tommy. he always gave away backstreet boys tickets so i loved him. jocelyn, christine and i thought this was a minor big deal… so Mario made sure to embarrass us about it before we left.  now tommy jordan thinks we are nerds. (getting flustered at the idea of looking dumb in front of a local radio dj qualifies as dorky, i suppose).

anyway, it was fun. so goodnight!

OH! and also, Danielle is OFFICIALLY my roommate again!!! after spending the morning fighting with the housing people, we are back in B114! it just wouldnt be the same, without the hairdye all over the floor and our impossible-to-open window. its our last year together, and thats sad.

also, i saw michelle and halli today and they are doing wonderfully!!