everyone is going to go see the davinci code. i know i know, its only fiction. its no big deal, its just a book that no one really takes to heart.
im not one of those people standing in front of the movie theatre with a picket sign or handing out "the truth about Jesus" panphlets, but it does unsettle me. it unsettles me and frustrates me and i will tell you why.
because i love Jesus. I believe what is written in the Bible, about Jesus. There is no doubt in my mind that what is written in the Bible, is truth. for someone to suggest, or fictitiously imagine (redundant, i know) and tell a story that suggests that Jesus was married, behaved sinfully, and that the notion that Jesus was God was invented centuries and centuries after he walked the Earth, bothers me. and it should. Because I love him, and I believe and try to live by what is written in the Bible. I cant help but take it personally. Its like, someone talking badly about your best friend. saying something horrible about that person, something that would go against everything that they ever believed in and stood for. and then you tell the people who heard the rumor that it wasnt true. the people who heard the rumor said that they didnt really believe it anyway, but it was such a good story that they told 20 more people. wouldnt you still be frustrated that the story was being told at all??? i know this is a lacking example, but i dont know how else to put it into words.
its just hard to have these feelings, especially because everyone is like, "its just fiction, why are you getting all worked up, its no big deal."
I just dont really understand why, if its no big deal, if its not a personal attack, why dont people make up stories and stuff about Mohammed, or Confusious, or Budda, or any other religious leader? everyones workin so hard to disprove christianity, to discredit my Lord and Saviour. Someone who has provided for me and my family in impossible financial situations, someone who Ive SEEN work miracles, whose voice ive heard speaking to my heart. The person i love with all of my heart and soul.
It saddens me, and Im not wrong for feeling that way.
ok thats my rant for the day! lol. i really just needed to get that out, because everywhere i look i see the davinci code controversey. its annoying.
anyways, me and christine went in to North Philadelphia yesterday and gave out food with our church. It was such a blessing. I really feel like some of those people will come to God because of it. That makes me so happy!!
This week is my birthday! i was kind of resenting it, because its my 21st birthday, and a lot of pressures can come of that, but i have nothing to worry about. saturday ill be going to nires and im so excited. i had been worrying about the drinking and everything, and i really just dont have to worry about it. like, its not the pressure that people are putting on me, but pressure that im putting on myself. im not saying that im not going to drink at all, because drinking in in itself is not a sin. but being drunk is, and so im not going to get drunk. it is really importand to me that i stick with this too, because i will be devestated if i get drunk tha tnight. i really dont think i will though. so im not worried. it will be an awesome time with my best friend. 
